Sea life log

I got away safely in the hands of my mom's to Indonesia to escape from all the Chinese New Year frenzy. 4 days of fresh air free from carbon revived me inside out. The constant wind blew all my anger and irritations away.

Day 1
We went straight to the market place after arriving. Tanjung Penang isn't very developed. It's like Singapore before independence. We did some grocery shopping and I got my Banana Roll thing. I was in 'pretend sleep' mode on our way to Trikota. I didn't wanna participate in any debate.
A couple of things changed and some were still the same from the previous visit 2 months ago. Due to a storm which flooded part of the kelong, they've raised the whole 'chalet' there. I wonder how they do it but they did. Apart from that, there were only 2 squirrels left, the sea turtle swam away during the storm and someone bought our favourite hut. The one with a big porch front without air con.
There wasn't anything to do but wait for some tourists to leave for their ferry cause they took the last one home. It was hilarious how my mom's friends complained when they didn't leave early, and also when they left. We played dai ti the whole afternoon and I did a little reading too. When the tide resided, I pulled my mom along with me for some clam digging. It was fun but a little tedious and we've managed to get some and a starfish too.In the midst of clam collecting, I got pinched by a house crab cause I thought I found another clam and went to pick it up. Hahaha.

Day 2
Missed breakfast and woke up at 1.30pm for lunch. I did more reading and dai ti. We walked around the whole kelong looking at properties people bought. We swam away in our dreams of owning one of those huts one day. Went for more clam digging again and had them for dinner. They were fresh and good and sweet. I did more reading after dinner and got to sleep.

Day 3
I woke up at 4am disturbed by some bites I got from some insect. I was itching and got up for some morning air and did more reading. The stars covered the sky like someone from heaven spilled a bottle of glitter onto the sky. The morning was cold and I laid on the hammock swinging and enjoying myself. I caught the dawn breaking but missed the sun rise due to a wall of clouds along the horizon.
After breakfast, we decided to go for a swim. It was better than the last time. The water's clearer cause it was high tide and I had a life vest on. I took no effort to stay afloat and left the waves hold me in it's insecure depth. The water was freezing and the strong winds made it colder. I couldn't wait to try the life vest and dipped myself in. The picture below is a jetty made by them. Behind is where we swam and cannonball-ed.My mom made a fuss about me waking at 4 so I had a nap after lunch. I woke up and did more reading and was made to play more dai ti. I was suffering from severe itching and stuff.
Right after dinner, it was time. Time that we all had been waiting for, Fire works. I managed to get a couple of low quality videos. You had to be there to experience the thrill. The adrenalin rush that hyped up my low spirits.







The videos were actually funny and I could hear my mom swearing and stuff.

I did more reading and got angry when Bella found out that she love Jacob and kissed him but felt better after that when things got better. Hahaha. I went to bed after than leaving a couple of pages to read on the ferry.

Day 4
I woke up looking forward to breakfast. The ice cold water made me shiver early in the morning and I felt disgusted and couldn't wait to get home for some heated shower. The fish porridge I missed turn cold by the time I ate them and I felt worse. We went back to the market to get some dry goods before heading to the jetty. The ride home was bumpy and the waters were choppy. I amused myself bobbling up and down along with the boat. I finished reading Eclipse and now, I'm feeling very bored.

Crystal jade waters

The calm waters along with the sunset

Our shelter

That's all about it. My little escapade to Indonesia.


You know I missed you and were the only reason why the contemplation. Thank you so much for coming down all the way to pass me the book you searched all over the island for. Thank you for everything.=]

F'd up woman

What a fucked'up festive season apart from meeting my cousins.

I'm leaving later at 7.30am for Indonesia. I'm leaving for good. Chinese New Year makes me sick.
Die Bitch.



Too bad you hate me,
Too bad I have the man you wanted.
Too bad you're disgusting,
Too bad he clearly clearly loves me more.

I want my ang pao!

Chinese new year is around the corner,
Clean your room and make sure your books are in order,
doing things to help your mother,
and play dota a little later.

Your grandma wants you to go to the temple on the eve's,
to "bo pit bo pit*" and hope your father strike 4D,
to make sure your brothers and sister won't be so naughty,
to make you study and earn big money.

20 people squeeze in a table for 3,
getting ready for a family feast.
fighting chopsticks and flying veggies,
mother embarrass you in front of everybody.

Stay up all night to watch the countdown,
celebrities from channel 8 acting like a bunch of clowns.
Filming fire cracker from china town,
hope it drops and burn the people around.

Woke up early and got the first ang pao.
Peeping inside to make sure it's more than a pound.
"Ah girl ah! go dress up now!"
Time to for my annual ang pao collection rounds=]

After a few days, I opened them all.
I counted them, hoping it's more than what I wished for,
Some cheapos just gave me $2 lor.
I hope daddy never give their daughter more.

Back to school and no one recognise you.
Your feet's so fat you can't even put on your shoe.
You remembered eating even though you're full.
Now you're in TAF and need to run after school.



Happy Chinese New, Freeks=]

spongebob

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
WHO LIVES IN A PINEAPPLE UNDER THE SEA?

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
spongebob fuckpants

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
Absorbent and yellow and pourous is he!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
spongebob loserpants

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
If nautical nonsense be something you wish!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
spongebob isafaggotpants

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish!

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
Ready?

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
spongebob dickpants
spongebob douchepants
spongebob penispants
spongie-bob, uglypants!

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
SPONGEBOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB JENNYPANTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
hahaahah

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
you should copy and paste this entire nonsence and post it on your blog since mine is down

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
last part,

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
pittititi titi titi

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
HA HA HA

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
that's the last part

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
the nose-whistle thing

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
the captain laughs

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
the the show starts

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
ahhhhh,good moring gary!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
okat

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
done posting

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
haha

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
continue,i said good morning gary

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
meow~?

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
well,bye,i'm off to work!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
I'm off to wo-rk! x4

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
what's the place called ah?

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
*strolls to krusty Krab*

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
i can only remember krabby patties

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
oh ya

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
hahahahah

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
hahaha!

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
good morning mr krabbs!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
Good morning spongebob!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
good morning squidward!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
squiddy, "right" *grunts and snorts*

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
krabs : spongebob! start tossing those patties!

Hi, My name is Jenny. says:
random fish: errr, can I have a krabby patty please?

sean - The signature embedded within. says:
OKAY THIS IS BLOODY LAME LOL

That's not my name!

If you had been noticing, I've been changing names everyday on MSN. Well, I was just trying to find out which sounds better. So far, Lily had been the best. Hahaha. That's not my name!

For so many years, I've no idea which is the right pronunciation of my name. Every time, when I meet new people, they change my name bit by bit till I have no idea which is the correct one. Like how Miss V. had been calling me "huangni" for 2 years. Thank god I still know how to spell them right.

I need a new name.

Land of opportunities

I was having fun with my mom's nail polish a while ago and now the room reeked of nail polish remover.

While enjoying my home-made nail parlor, momma was talking to me about leaving SG for China 'in search for better opportunities'. It made me realised how much my mom trusts me to leave us behind in search for a better job. With that, she made it impossible for me to be bad. The better? I get to have a very large room with a hair dryer, ironing board, big closet, big bed, and a not so private toilet. Somehow, I've got the feeling that part of her responsibility would be left for me.
Well, I simply just want her to enjoy what she's doing or rather, going to do and earn a pile. Haha!



Sometimes she seemed to be able to do much better than me.
Sometimes it seemed that I didn't have much ability.
Sometimes I feeling guilty for almost everything.
Sometimes I'm so afraid that I'm ain't good enough to believe.

The ultimate goddess

I got the cooliest shoes on earth and the cooliest I've ever bought.

Meet Julie and Edward Cullen. Bob named one of them Julie, so the other would be Edward. Hahaha! I just named my shoes!
I've bought them like 2 weeks ago and I've ever since complained to Bangla that I can't wait to put them on. I've counted. There are 7 colours in total. Haha, beat that, as if your shoes has got 7 colours.



Just 5 more days darling, 5.more.days

Lusty long hair

Sometimes I do get jealous of girl with extremely long, sexy, lustrous hair with maximum sex appeal to seduce men/males/boys/gentlemen like my brother. With a little flick and a naughty twirl, it's enough to drive those sex beast to their knees.

Looking back, I've never had long hair. They would be chopped off once reached a certain length limit. I always thought that long hair would look really weird on me and I find myself really boring if I look the same for the max of 4 months. So snip snip snip, goes my hair. But again, each time I come out from the salon, I look like lesbian/butch/your boyfriend. So much for trying to look different.


Anyway, enough of the hairy talk, take a look at this!
She's definitely 40ish trying to act 20ish. At first, I thought it was just another of my brother's collection of hot girls in swim suits. Then I noticed something about her face through the tiny thumbnail display. So I clicked it and thought someone photoshopped my granny's face. Insisting of looking good just made her ice cleam. *Kana hor chia long**[like kenna run down by car]






Sometimes missing someone impossible is like throwing pebbles on water. They skip for a little while, and then they sink in and impossible to find. Neither would we go look for it. --lieslikedust

Ice cream

If I make the wrong decision this time, I'll be damn ice cleam.

F.I.F.T.E.E.N 15

I'm rather somehow in a way or another proud to say that I got 15 for my L1R4. Well, it's something I expected though. Not much of a surprise. And now comes the bigger problem.

I feel as though I'm standing in a crossroad. The feeling is worse than failing.





Sometimes I feel like a piece of china.
Though it looks hard and shiny,
I'm fragile breaks very easily.

Sometimes I feel like a piece of china.
Smashed and pieced back a million times,
with missing pieces and visible crack lines.

Sometimes I feel like a piece of china.
At first it was amusing and important,
then you're soon forgotten.

I am that friggin' piece of china.

WTF

What the hell, I think I'm completely insane. It's 2.45am Monday a.k.a, Judgment Day. And here I am, fantasizing about T.O.P kissing me on the lips instead of my results. God, I'm fucking lost my mind!

Smack!

Watch this. Awesome performance with Lee Hyori, the sexy nuna. How I wish I'm the one being kissed by T.O.P!


This is 100% kickass

The Sicko

When you run and go out of breath,
You may faint and land on my breast.
The ambulance will come and rescue the mess,
and the doctor will then pump your chest.
He will strip you naked for some test,
and give you some pills to ingest.

The operation starts and the doctor cuts you up.
You're alive again and that's all luck.
You went back home to have your rest,
out of the blue, you had a seizure attack.
You started vibrating and you head jerking,
"Tack, Tack, Tack........"
You got sent back to the hospital for another check,
the nurse gave you a hundred jabs.

The next moment you opened your eyes,
your body's toasted black,
your balls were as flat as my grandma's back.
You were so unconscious that you thought your tits were about to crack,
and tried to fix it with some glue and blue tac.
The nurses found you and thought you were on crack,
tried to calm you down and gave you several smacks.
Smack on your head, smack on your butt.
Smack them all up and make you fart.
They figured that you're a retard.
No, they're wrong, you're just too ____ from the start


Well, bangla gave me the inspiration to write this crap when he just recovered from his asthma and I continued blabbering bullshit towards the end. I see no link myself too. Well, at least this is something I love to do.

The fear of seeing your future in haze is worse than getting back your results. The problem now is not whether I would pass or fail, the problem now, is that what am I going to do even if I pass, which route would I take if I fail. The scary part of having to make a decision larger than life creeps on me seconds by seconds. I don't see what my little little CMI talents could bring me. All I could do is to dream big hoping to surpass Jay-Z. What if I make the wrong decision like all the time. It's so difficult to decipher what life brings ahead. That's life.

Life has got no direct answers. You don't have answer booklets for them. The answer is all written in our hearts in how we would live our lives. No one said getting married at 21 is wrong. No one said getting married at 50 is a mistake. See the deal? Life will be painstakingly retarded if we have our lives planned out in a book were we had to refer to everyday to see what has to be done. What if page 40 says, "Your time is up"? That, will be really fucked'up. Haha. Really, no shit. Think about it.

"The future that lies ahead of us are like pieces of puzzles we have to collect to get the full picture when we die. It's up to us how we would want the pieces to look like, how beautiful and flawless it will be and left for others. Do you want to be respected for what you did? Or do you want people to learn from your mistakes?" -lieslikedusts

Dress to impress

"First and foremost.........."

I sure miss that woman. Haha.

Anyway, I've been given a decent amount of cash from my daddy and I spent about 3 quarts of it in short 3 days. Sadly, spoilt brat with expensive taste like me is desperately struggling to get what I want. I've foreseen that I would look like the female version of BIG BANG. And, here's a new video from BIG BANG. One of the members, SeungRi's solo. Well, the others were there as backup dancers I guess. But who cares, the video is smoking hawt.



See! Your room's smoky now! Told you it's hawt! The baby,(Seungri's pet name cause he's the youngest) the girls, the BIG BANG, the beat, the abs, the everything. BIG BANG, still never fail.

Have I ever told you about my really annoying brother? Well, that dickhole would occasionally wake me up from my sleep early in the morning when the sun is just a few degrees up east. The random poking and talking makes me kick him and he would kick me back saying,

[chinese]"WAH, TI WO HOR!"translation:kick me hor.

Or, he would ask me really stupid questions which are not important at all like asking if I've got cash from daddy yet, OR!, showing off his new shoes, OR!, shaking me up telling me go to school[school? wtf?], and blahdee blahdee blah! Bet it's because of all the protein in his pee making him so loco. Like what he asked my mom just now.

[hokkien]"Ji leh qio si mi ah?",

asking my mom what is the stalk of the cherry called, pointing innocently at it when he pushed the whole box of half eaten cherries, full cherries, seeds and stalk all over the floor, causing my mom to say "Why would I have a son like this" in Hokkien. Well, on the contrary, I have a better brother than yours and a cooler mom than yours. Hahahahahahaha! At least my mom isn't like yours from Scenario 3!(previous post)

Happy Birthday to my cousin MR RICK NG EN QI.

You still owe me 5 bucks from Yoshinoya.

Current Shopping Status
Dunk Hi----Oh Yeah
Pants ----Oh Yeah
Comme Des Garcon Top----Hell Naw
New Boxers----Hell Naw
Wicked Scarf----Hell Naw
New Socks----Nell Naw

PSST, IT'S JUST PRETENDING.

According to much info from people around school today, we're gonna get back our results in less than a week. Bunch of morons. When it was 1997, they had 6 months holiday. Dickettes, this sucks.

So I just realised that I am not one bit nervous about getting our results, like what Bob said, Que Sara Sara kind of thing. Either I do well, or I'm just gonna get some serious mocking from my brother, who's pretty much a dickhole, did pretty well. It pretty much scares me cause I think I'm the only one so cool about it. What, it's scary to be cool. LOL.

I'm currently very clueless and doubting about my unlikely 'succeedable' future. Therefore, I came up with a list full of what I'm able to do if I got really good results, and also, if I shuuckk ballssh.


Case Scenario 1. Huannnee got back results. Read expression on Miss Aljunied's face. Her very satisfied face. Knew she did pretty well, decided to take a look at results. Got single digit. Saw her future buying an island with 15 Lamborghini, 12 Ferrari, 20 really kick-ass motorcycles, a basketball stadium topped with a baseball stadium with 5 hot air balloons. With Jay-Z as my butler paying him $5000 a month. Maybe I'll have my own theme park. And Zoo like Michael J. and name it "Huannzors's Sanctuary". Her job? Mega superstar.

Case Scenario 2. Huannnee got back results. Read expression on Miss Aljunied's face. Her usual 'you-are-(fill in with very chim negative vocabulary)' face. Knew she did badly, decided to hide in the toilet to take a look at results. Got a double digit bigger than my age. Saw her future in a cardboard box and tattered clothes in a park, smoking ciggs taken from bins, eating leftovers from park litterbugs(those A.holes), and smelling like Darren's sweat.(Hahaha!) No shoes on, with really crazy hair. Curse and swear at Jay-z every time he appears on TV for making so much money.

Case Scenario 3. Huannnee got back results. Read expression on Miss Aljunied's face. Expressionless. Knew she did alright. Nothing fantastic. Plain Jane, getting plain results. She her future behind the desk as a clerk typing her day away from 9 to 5. Got married at the age 0f 27. Have 2 kids, a girl and a boy. A very boring husband. Quits her job to take care of kids. Very Auntish, enjoys talking about market discounts and other unrelated stuff with fellow parents. Cooks dinner at 6pm. Sleeps at 10pm.


Twilight and Stephenie Meyers is driving me loco. I'm left with 2 pages of New Moon left unread and it had been left unread for weeks. I have seizure attacks every time I think about not having Eclipse and Breaking Dawn cause to bookstores in SG is just pretty much as fail as popular. I was so desperate that I was close to downloading the E books or getting the books from Amazon.com. I don't wanna borrow them from anyone cause I wanted MY OWN. I feel brainwashed by Edward, and I love it.

Speaking of books, you guys should check out this book.I know the picture's a little bit big.

Well, this book totally kickass. It's the funniest book I've every read. Like the Twilight Saga, I'm going to get the whole collection of this really crazy book. Here's a sneak.

Click to read you dummy.

My Ride

I wish I can have a car,
so i can drive far far.

My Ferrari, Maserati, Lamborghini and BMW,
will kick your ass when I race you.

Check out my rims they're super hot wheels,
Hot enough to burn your MacDonald's meal.

Your scrap metal ain't that tough,
cause mine is faster that the airplane or the cheetah.

I've got super fast and monstrous engine,
so fast that I'll make your Ah Mah scream.

Cellulite Damage

HAHAHA!!! YOU FOOLS ARE GOING BACK TO SCHOOL. HAHAHA!!!
(I just can't help it)

I went out in the afternoon and wasn't really used to seeing PEOPLE dressed in the same clothes. Furthermore, I'm still living in 2008 cause not going back to school doesn't make it seem like a new year at all. I used to like 'first days' of school.To be frank, I can't wait to get my results and pursuit the next chapter, be it good or bad.
Anyway, back to what I was saying about school and stuff, I just can't believe my cousin's actually in Secondary 1. Seeing her in her new uniform made me pray hard that she will continue to remain innocent and bubbly and not get influenced by many other screwed ups. I could tell she's a little 'lotus'[lian] now with all her very 'lotus-ish' blog entries. Well still, her mom should thank god for giving her such a thoughtful child.

"Being blind is bad enough,
but worse when you have eyes but don't see"

Twenty-oh-n9ne!

tFirstly, I am surprised to see the previous post. Secondly, it's a new year. Thirdly, I'm already anticipating for 2010. Lastly, I love work.

Despite the awful incident last night,[I never want that to happen ever again.] It was pretty alright. Crowd was as bad as ____(use your imagination)____ mobs, fireworks were like massive terrorist explosions, people were the usuals, I didn't lose anything. Who cares, I barely survive 2008, I'm glad I've made it through. The last meal I had for 2008, Minced pork rice and beef noodles. Well, I ate like dog.

Since I got 2 notebooks from Sijia and Joo Ann this year, I reckon that I should make good use of it. Well, I just got this urge to have a compilation of all the poems I wrote and pen them all down. I'm really looking forward to making good use of it and hopefully make Jay-Z beg for me to work with him. HAHAHA. Or maybe cut my own record and be the next Jay-Z and buy Chelsea. Or I just be famous for my words and become a billionaire and rule the world. Or maybe I would be more than that like living with BIG BANG or Edward Cullen, aka, Robert Patterson. What can I say, I have dreams. Powerful dreams. And, I'll save the other one for future [hopefully] poly use.
Before I continue further, here's something short for you guys.

Piss 2008,
cause 2009's here after the long wait.
Fly 2009, fly!
cause the year ahead is so damn fine.

Okay, it's not that great but I tried and took almost instantly for the right simplest words. Ah, What the heck.

Like anyone else and also a tradition of mine, I would definitely have a list of revolutions, resolutions and many weird illusions.

1. Most importantly, love my Mom and Brother. After 16 years of my life and still going, I've learned to appreciate them more and more each day. We only have each other to depend on, and I know all you 2 cared for me the most unconditionally. I've feared of how life would be like without you, it would be worse than any I've gone through. I promise to be good and you can have my word and not hanky panky when I'm out. I promise not to pah chiu(rob in hokkien) or anything like that. I love you mom and forever my Chris Brown.
2. Be a better employee.
3. Learn to save what I earned
4. Spend wisely.
   
5. Start a collection and finish what I've set my mind on collecting. Big Bang albums and Twilight Saga and maybe my own dollhouse.
6. Psycho my mom to move to a bigger home. I had enough of fantasizing how my new room would look like. It's worse than how sometimes my brother would poke me to annoy me early in the morning.
7. Be nice.
8. Allow my heart and soul to reach whatever I'm doing, be it studying, writing, or as simple as pooping and sleeping.
9. Have an average of 8 hours of sleep each day. It's something almost impossible for me but I'll try.
10. No more bad habits.
11. Take good care of my stuff and not lose anything.
12. Psycho my dad to treat me better. It's time you learn that you have a daughter who still needs you. Financially. (Well, since emotionally wise, you only give your all to her)
    
13. More to come.

I think I'm going to pen all these on the very first page of my notebook.
I more minute to the end of 01.01.09!

The Best


Part of the reason why I love work.
Left:My gossip partner, ice cream partner, almost anything partner.
Right:My bestfriend, my scandal at work, my anorexic gay.