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I';M BLOODY INTOXICATEDR LA.

Desperate

I shuddered, jaws tighten.
another second passed,
another minute went.
DESPERATE, I wait for your return.

I cried and scream with tears I taste.
To see you again was a losing race.
Stuck in the horrid dimensions of heaven and hell,
DESPERATE, I have to see your face

I hunched and staggered with all my strength,
the love that took all my energy soon come to waste.
The touch that heals, the voice that sang.
DESPERATE, I need your embrace.

feeble life of an unlikely mortal

Her face crimson with freckles,
her eyes depressed and lifeless,
her dark rings under them told many sleepless nights,
the thousandth time she woke up in fright.

Her fragile frame, so brittle and light,
yet she stood there with her fist clenched tight.
Her monster roared with much danger,
still, she waited for to take her stride.

She wanted no more than another sleepless night,
quietly dream of her love, her knight.
Still, she stood there, waiting to attack,
before she knew it, It crushed her flat.

All she wanted was her knight and rest.
The bravery to stand up for what she longed for.
She knew taking down the monster would be a test,
but all she's got was nothing left and rather give her all.


I screamed as I jumped up from my sleep,
the monster saw me and ready to eat.
I breathed hard to break free.
I turned around,

it wasn't a dream

When the world turned silent.

Today is just one of those bad days. How great.

Legend:
Walked to locations like dog-RED
Things which were as bad as stepping on dog crap- IN BOLD

Overslept today which cost me $15 for cab fare just to catch Twilight at Great World City. On a lighter note, Edward's worth the $15. Hahaha. Banglah went for work later and I went shopping alone. Entered Zara and got my brother a tee. There were nice clothes at the outlet there. Tried on 3 pairs of pants, none fits. So I got pissed off and went to pay for 2 tees. The cashier was some effed'up lady. She has got some attitude issues as if she just saw her man with some other woman on their bed. I wonder why Zara would hire anyone like her.

Got to Ngee Ann City to get New Moon and Eclipse. So eclipse sold out. Damn. Wanted to try Zara again but that place was evaded by many aunties. And I ran away towards Wisma. I still want my Agnes B. wallet BADLY. Contemplated for 3 days 3 nights and ended up not getting it. Disappointed, went to meet mom at Tangs and lunch at Lucky Plaza. Back to Tangs again and walked around with mom a little before meeting Rick at Paragon. Walked all the way to the bus stop outside Heeren to get a bus to Marina Square. The bus took a year to arrive, and a little boy stepped on my new shoe and left his evidences.

Club Marc is just bullshit. I got 3 pairs of shorts the day before and the sales assistant, pretty much known as The Supervisor, told me she could fit in those which I was holding and claimed that she got one herself too. I got too excited that I could fit into the kids' apparel, I got 3. Apparently, much fail that Club Marc is, the clothes are just as bullshit as the shop name is. [trying to be much like Marc Jacobs, ahh, please.] I couldn't get bigger sizes cause they were the largest, and there wasn't anything nice, and I couldn't get my $59.90 back, so I left the place angrier than ever. Got back to Orchard to meet Jade, and Rick to meet Alvin. Headed to Far East and was still angry. Gave all 3 pants to her cause she's the only one who could fit in. Lucky girl, skinny as a stick. Caught up a little and decided to walk back to Paragon to meet Rick, who bailed me out on Vivo.

I don't understand sometimes that people just think that Singapore is the size of China. They just don't understand how much I have to travel just to meet them at somewhere convenient for them while I suffer public rides with ugly Singaporeans and when I asked to go somewhere further, it's hopeless. DON'T YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL? BISHAN, TOA PAYOH, BRADDELL IS FUCKING FAR FOR ME. Forget it, just blame it that Singapore is so fucking big. I can't complain. I'm the only one who lived in 'Europe'. I'm an angry kid. I'm the one who wants to go Vivo, it's in Los Angeles. [I'm just angry, don't mind me and the sarcasm, friends. I never mind the long rides. I'm just frustrated that sometimes you guys just think about yourselves.]

Anyway, I walked back to Far East again to have my dinner with Ash, Jade, Yun Hao, Nicky, Zane and 2 of their friends. Slacked a bit and went off to Great World City again, to Kovan from Great World City and back home at 'Europe'. I missed to last bus so I had to cab back home. Fortunately, bangla paid part of it with his one year pay, HAHAHA!

Did I mention that Christmas Eve was awesome besides the part when bangla got in his 'bangla frenzy mode' with me and made me wanna murder him. R.E.A.L.L.Y, M.U.R.D.E.R. H.I.M. Shall not spit a word about how barbaric I was with my umbrella.

Twilighto

Yes, Mr Neo. I've finished reading the book since that day you asked me. Haha. And, because of that, I'm freakishly bimboticly crazy about Robert Patterson. When he was Cedric in Harry Potter 3 years back, he wasn't that attractive. Now when I see his face anywhere around town, I dream so hard to marry him. Like any other bimbo, I dreamed.
But all thanks to work, I haven't had the chance to catch it. Darn it.

"AHHHHHHHHH, EDWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I'ma fan of Robbert Patterson on Facebook now! Hahahaha

Christmas is in 2 days and I'll be stuck in Tanglin Mall. I've done most of my Christmas shopping in the store cause I can't find time to go shopping. Most probably gonna wrap them tomorrow. I'm being Santa. I always am. I can't wait for my paycheck!!!

Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is ______________________.

Okay, bedtime.

Meet the family

Went back to Daddy's for BBQ today. As pathetic as it always had been, 6 people were present. Namely me, my brother, dad, dad's wife, dad's wife's brother, dad's friend Uncle Thomas. It was as usual, boring. So boring that I was playing with water bombs with my brother. Had half a cap of raw Bombay Sapphire. It was good, burning good, like Listerine mouth wash. Haha. Well, can't have too much in front of Daddy! I'm a Daddy's girl. Well, he offered me his mix. Oh, and my dad, besides getting a new time piece last week, got a new iPhone too. He sounded really convincing into getting me one when my contract ends.

I got crap from Body Shop while my brother got some perfume and shower gell from Issey Miyaki!
Christmas just got crappier this year.


Okay, I ran out of ideas on what to blog.

BIG BANG IN MY HANDS!

I'M SO PHUCKING FLY TODAY CAUSE I'VE FINALLY GOTTEN THE CHANCE TO FEEL THE COVER OF BIG BANG'S 'STAND UP' ALBUM!!!!!!!!

I took many peeks inside and all I did was to squeal every 10 seconds smiling like a total fool. All thanks to Jian Hao who got a new one for me. You don't have to, but you did. So thanks a million. I'm gonna start my collection of Big Bang albums soon. I am so sexcited that I'm speechless.

& I think I'm sleeping with the album tonight.

Oh, and officially a V.I.P!


P.S Jian and Bob came over to visit during work.. It adds more happy hormones in my body apart from receiving the album. LoL

The Apparition Of A Familiar Shadow

Lingering behind my mind,
was a little shadow I cannot find.
Anxious, as I was unable to keep,
the track she left behind her feet.

I have to find her, I have to know.
One day I know, her face will show.
The apparition of a familiar shadow,
the undying presence left my heart so hollow.

The tears which cried for nothing but fear.
The image before my eyes were unclear.
Shouting names I cannot hear,
The lips read out, "Goodbye my dear"

I fought strong to carry on,
but god told me, "This is all wrong!"
People around me had no emotions.
Then I know, you're just an apparition.

The Apparition so familiar,
The eyes, the lips, they are all so similar.
I look closer into the mirror,
I realized, it's just me, my mind not in order.

Stop it, it tickles.

Little hardworking Huannee worked too much and fell ill. Partly due to the weatherman who hadn't been doing his job lately, little Huannee was stuck in a series of unforeseen wet and dry conditions. So she fell asleep with her facial mask and iTunes still on till her momma came in and peeled off the almost dried mask and turn off the computer, and little Huannee had a good whole 13hrs of sleep. Bravo!

I had been working a lot still, fortunately, I only need to work 3 days this week and on Christmas day itself. Then, I'll see the moeny in the bank! Million dollar bill yo. Actually, it will be hundreds only. Haha.
So far, I've enjoyed going to work everyday despite the little time I have for myself and to sleep. Best part when you have a colleague who shares the same mind, like siamese twins. I had a lot of fun with Daan, Si Jia, Siew Hong, Mad, Jade, Esther and Joo Ann, not forgetting Nell. I would sing and dance in the shop with Daan. Haha, it was funny. It's nice to see kids and their innocent smiles and little things they do that are so amusing. Cute little things with edible heads, so cute that you can just chew off the head.

Basically, all I did today was leaving my iTunes playing and reading Twilight. I will only watch the movie when I finish reading it. The book pretty much catches my attention and Stephanie Mayers(the author) had it all written down the exact emotions every teenage girl would feel when they are in love and when they're annoyed by boys and how she kept the story running was marvelous. That's why, reading is better than just watching the movie. Reading make your brain go into "Imagination Mode" where you can be the director. While in the movies, you are watching a directed one. See the difference bangla?

Okay, I have to blog about this. I am currently talking to Benjamin Lim XZ, talking about his new tattoo, "DB" which stands for David Beckham, and said that he still likes it even thought it doesn't mean him. So I came up with a couple of other words for the acronym.
Things like,

• Douche Bag
• Dig Backside
• Da Bomb
• Dick Burst
• Dumb Boy
• Dick Balls
• Dusty Balls
• 
  
• 
  
• 
  

Haha. I was laughing while coming up with them. He just fainted. I don't know why.


After so many centuries, I actually watched a movie with my mom. We went to some Gala premire of the movie "Australia" at Vivo City and saw Stephanie Sun who held my gaze for I don't know why. Maybe she was trying to make me like her like how I love Big Bang and make me listen to her songs or maybe not. Or maybe she was my grandma. IDK.
The movie was pretty good despite the not very 'cool' title, "AUSTRALIA" Hugh Jackman was hot and my mom was oogling at his hairy body, and Nicole Kidman was funny and at the same time, still has that great acting skills. Did I mention that my mom was sobbing as if I was shot dead next to her? I could hear her sniffing for 3 hours. Geez, that's like a lot of tears. Anyway, the movie is a must watch. It opens on the 25th December I think. So go watch it. GO WATCH THE MOVIE 'AUSTRALIA'!!

I realised what a wasted girl I had changed into. Many dark secrets in the pad bag. LOL.


I wonder when my mom stop breastfeeding me. I wonder.

Young love and silly smiles

Ahhhhh, love is in the air. How cute to see a friend in love.

Oh well, I'm blogging for the sake of keeping this place alive. Thanks to The Better Toy Store, I'm as dead as this computer screen. Oh well, I'll be back shitheads!


Yes, it's very NICE of you to get me a present Mr. Neo=]

Pop it, Lock it, Drop it.

I managed to go at 4pm today cause it wasn't that crowded. Went to meet Ah Chong and Darence, then Ah Teck and Rick for food. Watched City Of Ember with Bangla. Movie's great. 5 Stars.

Okay, so I've been working at The Better Toy Store for about 7 days and basically they sell really expensive toys from Germany and Holland. I the people working there rock shit and kids never fail to amuse me. Like one who ripped the tin robot into pieces, the one who lost a sandal, fighting kids over Thomas and trains. However, some customers could really make you feel phark'up. Like the one who 'forced' Daan and I to wrap a scooter which is not from our shop, and the one who made everyone in the shop wanna kill her, and the Indian who had serious issues.
That's more or less about my job and I'm Sales assistant/gift wrapper/packer/maid/baby sitter/Daan's friend. Hahaha. Friend.

And, the best part, ALL THE BLOODY BEANIE BABIES! FYI, I love beanie babies.


I'm finally gonna have a really tight sleep tonight till god knows what time tomorrow. Maybe I should go to zoo tomorrow.

Sometimes it's just the truth that we have to face and how harsh reality is. How it hurts when we can do nothing about it. No matter how much we tried to fix things, it still wouldn't go our way and how we wanted it to be. The pain of standing in a distance embracing your smile. Your touch assuring, your eyes comforting. Looking back, they were just lies, a dream we have to wake up from. We were, we were almost/never meant to be. -lies like dust

7 days

I've got hardly any time for myself with 7 days packed full with work and nothing else. I've still got to wake up at 8am tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to get half day off and meet those goondo bunnies. Ever since we started working, we didn't have time to meet up at all. Anyway, I'll update soon on how's work and what's work.

3 days without blogging/facebooking/bloghopping/talking to benjamin tan = no pharking life!

P.S please do not head to Tanglin Mall tomorrow. I want my off.

GIRL

YOU SHOULD CALL HER WHEN YOU'RE DOWNSTAIRS HER HOUSE!
THEN SHE GOT NO CHOICE

DONT COME I WILLL SLEEP SDOWNSTAIRS

DONT MAKE ME GO UP AND KNOCK THE DOOR

NICE PAPER BAG

SHE WILL COME DOWN ONE LA

YOU JUST GO LA

YOU TRUST ME OR NOT?

AM I YOUR FRIEND?

SHE THOUGHT YOU PLAY RIGHT? SAY HOW OLD ALREADY


This is something between my brother and I.

Wooden toys

Work=Trash.