Life IIIV

I thought coming home to my crowded abode with clothes everywhere, greasy kitchen stove, sticky kitchen floors and having to share a room with my brother's bad enough. Now I realised, these were nothing of a big deal...

I'll never complain again. All I want now are things pretty unpredicted by heaven. The gamble of life at stake. Losing someone more important, is worse than dirty kitchens and messy living rooms. I would know that some day, she'll have to go, but now I want her not to give up hope just yet.

A night out made me miss out so much. I'm guilty.

Coming home to see adult diapers at the foot of her bed made my heart sank. I knew she got worse but denial hit me hard. So I asked. She couldn't control no more, struggling on a malfunctioning kidney, I know she must be feeling terrible with diapers on.

I passed her sitting on one of the dining chairs, I smiled at her like I would normally do. The results from her were fainter. I sighed.

It made me think so hard, how she's changing my life now. A soul we're trying to keep isn't just as simple. I saw my mom awake and bet that she hadn't been sleeping well. Her issues a million times heavier than mine. I wanna do something to take at least half her load, anything in the world. But I know an almost useless immature being like me could do little to protect my family. I volunteered to pay half for the housemaid, I wanted to give my attention to my dog but work had limited so much time for me at home.

No work=no money=time for home
Work=money=no time for home

Feel my pain. Will someone help my decide my pain?

Boys, clothes, gadgets. They are nothing to me now.